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Sunday, 05 October 2008

im down and lazy

here i am again. always lazy. i can't seem to sum up my energy to do my KASPIL2 homework. wtf. i need to do a lot of readings which i am really not in the mood to do so. all i want to do is just to read a nice book (chic lit) and chill the night away. but i can't do that. i'll feel too guilty to do so. because i know that there are still a lot of stuffs that i need to do. just like the KASPIL homework that i need to do. i still have 2 quizzes to study for tomorrow but that's not much of a problem. that's easy. but i just can't seem to finish the homework. ohfuck. i'm too lazy to read the required readings. haha.

why is it that all i do is to just whine and whine? i really don't know why.

i'm so down. and sad. and depressed. and devastated.

Sunday, 31 August 2008

i want to blab.

i just want to blab about what's on my mind.
since it's almost 3 and im doing no good, ill just type my time away.
i'm soooo out of words. okay i changed my mind. i wont type. haha!
bye!

Tuesday, 15 April 2008

EMO.

I'm not an emotional type of person and those who knows me knows that.

something's wrong with my hormones last night which made me sad. i didn't know what the reasons were but i just know that something is wrong.

then suddenly i became so emotional that i considered doing suicide.i don't see any reason why i should continue my life. i don't see any purpose. my life is not a purpose driven one.

my mom noticed my sadness. i think moms are like that. and i actually was happy to have someone in my side. she was telling me that she can understand me.

today was a more emotional day for me. i feel that i don't have a family anymore. a family who can understand me. i feel like everybody is just against me. have you ever felt so sure about your decision. it's something you're so sure about and happy to push through with it and people around you just think they know better than you do and dictate to you what wrong or right? have you ever felt somebody telling you that something is wrong sarcastically? have you ever felt somebody telling you "your reasons" for making such a decision but its just not it.

i'm feeling them all right now. :(

currently feeling so down.

Tuesday, 08 April 2008

Lovers <3

         Summer is approaching (i mean the vacation) and i just don't know how i will spend them without you guys. i'm so used to you guys being here with me. and spending the following weeks without you is hard. but then, you must remember that i love you no matter what. though next term will be different than this because of my different sched. i hope you will not forget me and please do visit me every chance you get. okay? miss me. okay? haha! don't ever be lazy to visit me. don't visit me just because i have hot classmates, visit me because you love me. (pretending to visit me because you love me but it's really because you want to see somebody else is okay with me ) haha! i know you guys love me the way i love you. i will surely miss you.

         My summer sched is kind of fucked up because i have the chance to go to HongKong on the 10th but I'll be missing a lot here.

         LIKE:

April 11, 2008 - Block's Summer Party

April 12, 2008 - Joyce's Debut

April 15, 2008- Rory's Debut

April 16, 2008-course card distribution

April 18, 2008- Katherine's Debut

        But when i go there on April 10, i have someone to accompany me there, and that's my cousin, who apparently is leaving on the 19th. and so when i leave late of April or early May, my aunt's maid will be my shopping buddy. since nobody is available to accompany me.

        I'm so confused but now, i'm kind of decided to just go there early May since I don't want to miss out on those events that i know will surely be a great part of my life. and ofcourse i want to be beside my friends on the special day of their life.

         I'm still confused.

Saturday, 05 April 2008

silly stuffs

i deleted all my old posts. i find them childish and really funny. my posts were really annoying. and i can't seem to stop laughing while reading them. hahaha. forgive me for posting those silly stuffs. im sending my love to you bitches (goofy and big world) love.

i hope that this will be where we will share our deepest thoughts and feelings mwah!